Having that realization, knowing I needed to reboot and get rid of some things, was energizing. I felt I had a purpose and a way to honor my mother. I just got to get through this reboot, then I will be feeling great! Turns out, the reboot was a much larger project then I anticipated. Where do I start? How do I accomplish this reboot?
That is when I started to make a few lists; What do I not like about myself? What do I miss about myself? What do I wish I could add to who I am? It was important to be realistic, yet not set myself up to fail as I made my lists. I had to be partial, and look at myself from a far. Most importantly, I had to take my time and complete this over several days or even weeks.
A Look at Part of My List –
What I want to get rid of –
Short temper
Eating from 9 pm – Midnight
Thinking actions of others are because of me
Jealousy
Watching TV until the morning
What I miss of myself –
Playing with my son
Crafting
Being Happy for others’ Wins
Being Social with my friends and family
Dancing in the Kitchen
What I want to add –
Hugging people
Self Confidence
Listening without comparing
Remembering the little – and big – things
Self-care
Now that I had my list, I really felt overwhelmed. How am I going to change all of this? Luckily, just as fast as I asked myself that question, I started making goals. My goals were set around the lists above and would, in theory, help me transition the bad out and the good in. This seems like it will work well for certain areas like snacking past 9, enacting a bed time on weekdays, scheduling an intentional activity with my son 3 times per week, playing music while I make dinner and making notes on the calendar to check in with friends and family on certain days while making sure to make note of any little or big things coming up for them.
The next challenge, because it isn’t something I can just set a goal for, are the characteristics that are more emotional; jealousy, being happy for others, self confidence, and my temper. These I will have to just be aware of. As I write this, I have a possible solution, I think maybe at the end of the day I can reflect on my emotions and how I handled myself that day. Since my mom passed away, I pray before I go to sleep every night. During my prayer, I also talk to my mom and tell her about my day. This would be a good time to reflect on how I handled my emotions that day.
Well, now it is all set up. It is written down. I made my goals, now I just have to implement……….deep breath in……….deep breath out………
DizzyLiz Reboot 